Thursday, May 31, 2007

The Good, the bad, and the Ugly


Ok, so as some of you read this, you may be surprised. Mr. Tall and I are finally both at the same point in life. We are very ready to settle down in a place that we can call our own. We have been renting ever since we have been married (almost 3 years). In a few months, our rent is going to reach $700 each month. It didn't use to bother me, basically because I didn't have any attachments to the area and wanted nothing to do with the people or the place. I didn't know if this was where I wanted to settle down, and Austin definitely didn't want to settle down here.

The past couple of weeks, something has really been on my mind. I am ready to have a house to call my own. This shocked Mr. Tall. So, over the past couple of days, we have been driving around looking at houses for sale or looking for houses for sale. We have an appointment tomorrow (Friday) afternoon at 4:00 to look at 4 acreages near Hubbard. Yes, they are north of where we currently live, and we vowed to not move any farther north. However, we want to live in the country, and these 4 houses could easily be put in our price range. The payments would be near or below what we are currently paying for rent. They are acreages, out in the middle of nowhere! The town of Hubbard reminds me of the town where I grew up.

So, the good is that we are looking for a house. We have been praying about the decision, especially considering our current financial state. However, we think that it would really be good for our family to find a place to call our own and not to "throw" our money away. If it is meant to be, God will open up doors for us. If it isn't meant to be, then things won't work out. However, it is very exciting!!!


Blessing, our 10 month old daughter is not feeling well. She hadn't been pooping for several days. Then, suddenly, today, she has major diarrhea. She has already pooped out what she ate for lunch (peas so we saw the shells). Sorry for the visuals.....

We have attributed this to her cutting teeth. However, she has been running a low-grade fever and has been very irritable and grumpy. She has been cuddly and can't decide whether she wants to play or whether she wants mommy to hold her. She doesn't want much to do with daddy right now, which is weird.

On top of this, she has an interesting rash near her private area. It started like a little rash, then it looked as if it was going to peel, and now it is red and bumpy. It almost looks like little puss pockets. We have been trying desitin, A and D, and now Bag Balm. We called our doctor's office and talked with them about it. They said to use Bag Balm and to come in and see our doctor on Monday (she is on vacation until Monday).

So, hopefully things get better. We have been letting her run around with nothing on while at home to hopefully get some air to it. We will see how tomorrow is....


Work comp (WC). We had an appointment on May 16 to determine whether or not services are going to continue. We got news today that they are going to cut our services because the doctor we saw on the 16th says that there is no pathology or symptoms to warrant a diagnosis. This means that we have 6 appointments left, unless we fight it.

On top of this, the report from the doctor on May 16 contradicts another doctor that we have been seeing. WC wanted to pull his medicine perscription, but haven't yet. This is a good thing, since it does make a difference.

So, where are we...basically no where. We have to wait until the other doctor gets back from vacation to ask her for a full evaluation to be sent to WC. Then, if there are differences, the WC adjustor will contact the doctor from the 16th. It could get messy....

So, more stress related to the accident that changed our lives. We are just taking it one day at a time. Managed care is not fun.

Life is a journey.......I just wish that I knew what God's plan for our journey is. It isn't easy, but we know that He is walking with us every step of the way. A journey.....not a destination.

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Pictures as promised

South east corner of house (on left)
East side of house - north of porch
(Austin's surprise to me)
East side of house (south of porch)

Monday, May 28, 2007

Making a House a Home

My husband and I have lived in the same house for 2 years and 9 months. So, it is quite a long time to live at the same place, especially for us considering we have only been married 2 years and 11 months!

Well, for the first 2 years, we had no pictures hung on the walls and much stuff was still in boxes. Then, I was pregnant and decided that we needed to make it feel a little bit more like home, so we unpacked and organized and started making it feel more like a home.

Well, as you read from the previous post, things have been tough this year. We haven't known whether or not we will be able to afford the house where we are living (especially since our landlord just finished putting on new siding and installing new windows). Our rent will have increased almost $100 in the next couple of months from a year ago. Crazy since we really don't have a stable income right now.

Anyway, back to the point. My husband has been working at a local greenhouse and they tend to throw away a lot of flowers that are just not top quality. My husband, being the flower hater that he is and understanding that we have no money, has been going dumpster diving! All for me! I had a meeting a week ago and did not get home until late. When I got home, he had planted me a flower bed next to our front porch - all to surprise me and make me feel a little happier. It was so special. I have never felt that loved, especially since he isn't a real big fan of flowers.

Anyway, on Friday of last week he surprised me with a whole trunk and rear seat of the car full of flowers. A result of dumpster diving! Oh, if I could have only taken pictures of that!!! Anyway, today was the day that we planted them. This required digging up some sod and leveling out some areas. But, through it all, we laughed and smiled and sweat! It was a grand time. To me, our house feels more like a home now, just by planting a few flowers that other people were going to throw out! I really take pride in the outside of my house (more than the inside sometimes) and enjoyed driving up to it to see flowers. (I had to leave just so I could drive up and see the fruits of our labors!)

It is amazing what us wives are supposed to do for our husbands. It is well worth our time and effort to make our houses home. Hopefully when we move, we will make sure to get right on that task and not wait 2 years and 9 months to do it!

I will post pictures when I download them off of my camera. What a wonderful day!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

The past year (abbreviated)

Ok. I have been told that I am an excellent writer and that I need to begin to document what has been going on in our life the past year, so here goes nothing.

In November of 2005, we learned that we were expecting an addition to our family. What a surprise. Mr. Tall was very ready to have a son or daughter, but I was not ready at all. So, it was a tough transition, which still hasn't happened completely.

My husband was working several hours on a farm about 2 miles from where we live. He would put in over 80 hours most weeks, which made things extremely tough on our relationship. He just didn't know how to slow down, and as a result, struggled with not getting enough sleep. In February, we learned that I would not have a job for the 2006-2007 school year which was a surprise. So, I was looking for a job and gracefully finishing out my 2nd year of teaching.

In May, the school year was drawing to a close and we were getting prepared to have an addition to our family. Mr. Tall was working terribly long hours and not getting much sleep, trying to get the crops in and please his boss. On May 16, 2006, my husband stopped thinking for a split second and stuck his right (dominant) hand into a hay grinder. That split second has changed our lives forever. Things will never be the same. Needless to say, the past year has been one of many ups and downs - many struggles and many successes.

Mr. Tall spent 10 days in the hospital and endured 4 surgeries. He was released, and three days later had an emergency appendectomy. It was a stressful situation, especially being 8 months pregnant.

In July, we had a precious daughter born via C-section. She was 7 pounds .5 ounces and 21 inches long. She was so beautiful. I spent an extra couple of days in the hospital due to some complications, which was a struggle being we had spent so much time there in May.

In December, Mr. Tall quit his job and started a new job. That job did not pan out due to a few accidents, that he was unemployed 7 days later. This was a huge valley for us. He started school and working on his GED, also a huge struggle for him.

He found a job working for a greenhouse 30 miles away on a part time, temporary basis. This has been great for him. However, this job ends in about a week. So, back to square one.

Through this all, we have both been struggling tremendously with the loss. We are both dealing with it in different ways. However, during this past year, God has blessed us tremendously. We have made amazing friends with a couple who moved here from Washington state and have had their own trials and tribulations. We have drawn closer unto God. We are different people because of what has happened. It definitely hasn't been easy, but we are still alive through God's strength.

So, even though this may seem choppy, the post would be way to long for me to go into much detail. So, I will pick up from here.......welcome to our journey of life.